Shifted

Smile because it happened

I may be going on to a different ward, but that doesn't mean that my learning would be less that of my previous ward. I am happy to be able to experience Nephrology ward for 2 weeks. My stay there enabled me to experience various skills, witness emergencies and be a part of that team who helped the patient.  The quote I've posted helped me move on and accept my fate. 

This may be for the better and I would love to be rotated every 2 weeks! XD

Trying to build a positive perspective.

Going to be better at my profession.

Hello EENT!

Day 1

The big day has come. We finally learned what ward we are going to be assigned. I can remember how my conversation with my interviewer went -- it was weird. I talked weird, gave weird answers, didn't explain myself well. LOL. In the end there was one thing that I learned... he was cute.

Anyway, I'm not about to praise his smile or whatever, I just want to express myself as a novice nurse.

I really admire what the theorist Patricia Benner said about the experience of a nurse. She believes that people can acquire skills without knowing why, they just have to know how. In addition, she ranked nurses based on experiences. When I found my category, I was very relieved. Novice: No experience.

It's like end of story for the drama I was undergoing. I hate how institutions appears to be monsters and perfectionists that once you enter their vicinity, you got to have hands that moves quickly and all those. Too bad, there ain't no one in the nursing industry who gains a lot of money instantly. It's hard work. ALL hard work.  You work without pay? What other job would do that.

I don't know if later on, I will think or weigh which one do I prioritize.

In the long run I might even realize, that because I love what I am doing I want to start challenging myself. Be competitive in the nursing field and satisfied every single day that "Thank God! I am a Nurse"

Right now, my heart is filled with fear. My hands will tremble... well hopefully not. I mean I know I would really feel so low even if I am already licensed. It's so different.

Despite of that feeling, I am telling myself that I can do it. I am trying to reduce the fear I am feeling. I am slowly converting fear into concentration, presence of mind, and stock knowledge. Combine the 3 and then POOF. A new skill is the result.

One of the organic nurse says, "Keep calm and slowly build confidence" I can't help but nod my head.

I am expecting shouts, misbehaviours, test of knowledge. Sure. Go. Bash. Trash talk? I've played games to test my capacity. hahaha.

Yup.
Journey continues.

Carpe diem :)

Isn't it ironic?

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you

When you think everything's okay and everything's going right

And life has a funny way of helping you out when

You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up

In your face

What's happening to me now, I find it a big mystery. How I got here was not based on my efforts alone. I didn't dream or thought this would happen. I just... go with the flow. My mind is filled with thoughts that would probably kill me, make me depressed, and make me feel worthless at times -- but still I know I want to do this. I want to improve, I want to be of service. I want to feel worthy, alive, and happy of what I will do. 

Happiness is a hard find. Or probably I'm just making it hard for me sometimes. Although I pray that I will be able to get out of my cage and fill my empty soul. Yes I feel caged and empty. 

Goodluck to me! 

I feel that my heart just exploded. 

I let my mom check what I've wrote and she like, didn't understand a thing. She had a lot of comments which were irritants to my ears. I shouted, told her what part did she didn't understand? Like I've explained stuff there and all shit why can't she understand?

She kept on telling how bad it was I ended up getting the paper and crumpling it. I went to youtube, played 2NE1's new song Falling in Love and put it on replay while I decided to delete every single word I've written and write something new. 

Poof. 

I printed it out and she said that this new essay was better. And she can understand now. 

I don't fucking know how to feel. I wrote it out of frustration and not using my heart! The first one was from my heart and this was out of frustration... and she liked it moar? SURE. 

Well. 

It honestly scares me on how I'll rage in the future. 

If I am already training. 

...

Well probably mom caught the wrong timing. Like, I was playing that time. LMAOOOOO. Yea. That. 

Motivate!

You know the moment when you try to make plans in your head, like you feel all fired up inside your heart? That is a great feeling. Although sooner or later, you'll suddenly feel that you are lost somewhere and all your motivations are starting to drop down, that transition sucks. 

I don't know why that sort of thing exist. Why does people's vibes change and that the fiery feels fades away? Can it not be like when you feel it, it will stay forever? Looks like everything just fades at some point.

The challenge enters. How will you sustain the idea, the desire, the dream! Capitalize H-O-W. 

I hope I can realize it sooner.

Waxing

Tips on waxing your underarms

Waxing can be tricky. Even if you have done it several times you might still be confused.
Here are some things I've learned from waxing.

1. Wax after taking a bath. The skin naturally has microorganisms therefore any break in the skin after waxing won't be contaminated if you clean it first. 
2. You can place powder on your underarms before applying wax to lessen the pain.
3. The amount of wax you put in your underarm must not be too thin or too thick. 
4. Most wax packaging comes with a wooden stick (i.e. popsicle stick) which serves as an applicator. Instead of using it, grab a spoon and use the back of it to get the desired amount of wax. It worked better for me since the spoon is wider plus you'll have a good grip when applying. 
5. If you applied the wax downwards, pull the waxing strip upwards or vice versa. 

I started using hot wax for my underarms. I used the brand Epilin. It's packaging makes it starter friendly and the price is reasonable as well. I switched to cold wax, a honey based wax, afterwards since the hot wax took more effort than the latter. The good thing about hot wax is that it opens up pores so even small hairs has a bigger tendency to be pulled off.

Give waxing at home a try. Doing it yourself is convenient since time is in your hands plus you have the comfort of doing it at home.

Happy waxing!

Wolf Children

"Wolf Children" is an animated film aired last 2012. I was not aware of its existence until I randomly clicked on its trailer in you tube. Not being a fan of human turned wolf, I had doubts about watching. Although reading the comments made me change my  mind The movie runs for almost 2 hours, didn't bore me at any point. 

5 Centimeters Per Second

5 centimeters per second: A chain of stories about their distance

I never thought, one whole movie could actually be sad from start to end. 

It shows how the protagonist hoped yet get nothing in the end. Although it is realistic in my opinion since once you move away, and live in different places it'll be really hard to stay together. Oh they weren't even together. They just share the same feeling. They didn't exchange I love you's or said something straightforwardly. They just kissed and that probably means more than a clear explanation. 

Fate / Zero

Background

The first episode was confusing, if you do not pay attention to what they are talking about you'll be lost since it is an explanation of how things go in their world. I appreciated the fact that there has been an English dub for this anime, that I was able to listen and watch instead of reading. I can say that the first episode is important, boring as it may seem, it's practically a background check equally significant as the plot itself.

Sakurasou Pet no Kanojo

The Dorm

"Sakurasou" is a dormitory that is part of the art division of their school which keeps trouble-making students. Trouble-making is probably a big word but that is how they define it. They are not really delinquents or such. They just happen to do random things that caused them to move away from the regular dormitories.

Mogu Mogu!

I even took a picture of it!
Look at that bottle cap! :3

This drink is the BEST fruit juice I've ever drank since Minute Maid. 

I stopped by 7/11 and thought about which drink I should buy. I have my eyes on two products. Soy Milk and Mogu Mogu. I ended up buying the Chocolate flavored Soy Milk. The taste? It was the same taste as the cold taho my brother offered me to eat and he said it was delicious. Neither weren't for me.   I know I should expected the taste coming but, it has chocolate! It should have dominated. But sadly, it did not. 

I promised to myself that next time, I'll try Mogu Mogu. 

And today is that day. I walked down this morning to that convenience store and grabbed 2 bottles since I can't make up my mind between Strawberry and Lychee and it was TOTALLY worth it.

Shades

And she's like BAM !
I love you Mr. Shades

You know what, I started to appreciate sunglasses yesterday. 

I walked out of the house with a grumpy face and bad vibes. I popped in Mr. Shades and damn instantly, I felt good. Not just because I have my sunglasses on but because I know that they  they can't see through the windows of my soul.

Sometimes I judge people who wears sunglasses. "Darn this dude, wearing sunglasses in the train and shit, trying to look cool and stuff" Sorry folks, I judged you wrong. I never tried what you were doing so I never knew how it felt. It is true, that we should never ever judge anybody. Who knows, those people are undergoing bad vibes and wants to hide their eyes. Just like what I did. 

I felt that I have my personal space. Like I am separated from people and that I can do what I want to do, look where I like to look - like them fabulous guys, tee-hee. Mr. Shades so good. It'll probably fun to wear too even if you are not grumpy and stuff!

Thanks to this realization, I'd probably start to hunt gorgeous kinds of Mr. Shades.

Hot May Day

Wew.

The temperature outside is so high that people's normal temperature is probably raised to 37.0 degrees. I mean it. It feels that way. 

Last week I did a lot of errands for my employment requirements, and every time I ride the LRT for accessibility and comfort, I get the opposite. I get hot air from air-cons and crowded train partitions. But whatever, it's not like I agreed with them to raise the fare to fix their services. I won't complain any further bro. 

In addition, last week was really different from the other weeks. In fact I'd like to let the doctor check me up, if I have cancer or what, since I suddenly fixed my life. I told you I ran errands, that is so not me. 

All these months I have been pinned on my beloved computer seat. I was playing day and night tolerating the low FPS and the high MS of my computer just to play League of Legends and get trashed talked for supporting them bro's. Can you believe I exchanged my time for my future? Praise the Lord. 

Right now I have an upcoming exam, I don't know what to expect!

If I have one wish right now that would be...
to make it snow here!
Really it is so hot.

LOL.

Not getting any serious here
badumtsssss

But yea, sure sure sure. I'm not going into stagnation.

Cheers!