Isn't it ironic?

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you

When you think everything's okay and everything's going right

And life has a funny way of helping you out when

You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up

In your face

What's happening to me now, I find it a big mystery. How I got here was not based on my efforts alone. I didn't dream or thought this would happen. I just... go with the flow. My mind is filled with thoughts that would probably kill me, make me depressed, and make me feel worthless at times -- but still I know I want to do this. I want to improve, I want to be of service. I want to feel worthy, alive, and happy of what I will do. 

Happiness is a hard find. Or probably I'm just making it hard for me sometimes. Although I pray that I will be able to get out of my cage and fill my empty soul. Yes I feel caged and empty. 

Goodluck to me! 

Motivate!

You know the moment when you try to make plans in your head, like you feel all fired up inside your heart? That is a great feeling. Although sooner or later, you'll suddenly feel that you are lost somewhere and all your motivations are starting to drop down, that transition sucks. 

I don't know why that sort of thing exist. Why does people's vibes change and that the fiery feels fades away? Can it not be like when you feel it, it will stay forever? Looks like everything just fades at some point.

The challenge enters. How will you sustain the idea, the desire, the dream! Capitalize H-O-W. 

I hope I can realize it sooner.

Shades

And she's like BAM !
I love you Mr. Shades

You know what, I started to appreciate sunglasses yesterday. 

I walked out of the house with a grumpy face and bad vibes. I popped in Mr. Shades and damn instantly, I felt good. Not just because I have my sunglasses on but because I know that they  they can't see through the windows of my soul.

Sometimes I judge people who wears sunglasses. "Darn this dude, wearing sunglasses in the train and shit, trying to look cool and stuff" Sorry folks, I judged you wrong. I never tried what you were doing so I never knew how it felt. It is true, that we should never ever judge anybody. Who knows, those people are undergoing bad vibes and wants to hide their eyes. Just like what I did. 

I felt that I have my personal space. Like I am separated from people and that I can do what I want to do, look where I like to look - like them fabulous guys, tee-hee. Mr. Shades so good. It'll probably fun to wear too even if you are not grumpy and stuff!

Thanks to this realization, I'd probably start to hunt gorgeous kinds of Mr. Shades.